Sigur Ros concert in the mountains photographed by Taylor Echo
(Source: blua)
Me: So i told X that that the geekdom party starts at 10 tomorrow. Know why ? Because it’s binary hour !
Geek: At 2? 10 is binary to 2. Because 2^1 + (0 x 2^0) = 2, and 11 means 2^1 + 2^0 = 3.
Me: I don’t…get it.
Geek: No worries, normal people don’t need to be able to understand the binary system.
you’re going to be responsible for the people in your life - and it doesn’t matter if you shake your head or fluff your hair to get ready for a nonchalant shrug - whatever it is, is at your feet.
how best do we avoid hurting the people who come into our lives? do we shut ourselves off for what looks like an impending crisis? does that minimise collateral damage - in essence, do we need to be cruel to be kind?
or are we able to deal, piecemeal resolutions at a time?
you can say you didn’t ask for this, you didn’t ask for any person to come into your life, you didn’t ask for anyone to be attached, or take a chance on you - but the moment the words left your mouth: there it is - that parcel of responsibility.
life brings along memories tied to places - green spaces, laughter, boredom and orange juice walks along hallways.
it’s not goodbye yet, but the missing is here.
history has a way of repeating itself.
after all that 21-year-old music bravado, it takes a slack saturday afternoon 5 years later twiddling knobs and making a jam (the very first set !) in ratty clothes with a kindred spirit. more to come, hopefully !
what a weird week !
when i sit down to analyse what has transpired, it is a mad blur filled with alcohol, italian food and boy drama. one thing is clear, humans are weird creatures that desire for connections. but this is mitigated by equally weird concepts - impression management, egos, our fears and emotional baggage. but yet, we try, to receive and give our inadequate forms of distilled honesty.
and as much as i desire for this thing called discernment, i am less close as i was before the trip, but there is some touching around the edges, some form of preliminary understanding of myself. if nothing, the past week has taught me to take chances and understand a little more about risk management and the importance of give and take.
though it seems that everyone whom we’ve met in bali has their own eccentric brand of life philosophy - for example, that love is all about raw honesty (for the benefit of the other party) - i think there is a time and place for self-disclosure. and this knowing of self business? that takes time too, but we grow a little more each day.
